Its Been A Long Time Comin'

I was born by the river in a little tent; oh, and just like the river I've been running ever since." No, not really but I began to hum this song as I progressed through the cleaning process in my bedroom. I am making progress with my goal of "Getting My House In Order" I turned my bedroom upside down over the course of the last couple of days....and I actually broke my bed down this evening. This is a major accomplishment and I feel GREAT about it!! Did I mention that I didn't put the bed back together---wonder how long it will stay in its current state? It may be Sofa City for a few days!!

But, I am excited that I have gotten a bolt of energy in regard to this decluttering goal of mine since my June 30th deadline is quickly approaching and well, up until Monday morning, it was just a goal I kept repeating and thinking about. I guess the secret to my success has been doing a little bit of work each day instead of trying to tackle the massive project in one day. Being at home every night this week, so far, has also been helpful. Ah, the sound of devoting much needed time and energy to something that is beneficial to me!! So I started cleaning and decluttering on Monday morning at around 6:45 a.m., when I should have been getting ready for work, and have been gaining more and more inspiration each and every day. Could it be that I could be decluttered before June 30th? I sure hope so.

I have even started a "I am going to try to sell it bag" for my Stoop Sale in June. If it isn't broken or ripped I am really going to try to sell it.

This week has also been an interesting week at work (really the last three years have been, but who is counting). I have decided that there is some lesson I am supposed to be learning at this job and that the job is not for naught. This learning(s), I assume, will help me in the next phase of my personal journey. I have definitely ruled out my daily job functions as the learning's...but am beginning to conclude the growth is going to come in the area of people, places and things. More specifically, learning how to effectively deal with those PEOPLE, places and things and to not let the nonsense that others attempt to lay at my feet bother me!!

I tend to believe that I am of the peaceful kind...most of the time I have a cheery disposition and when I don't, I keep to myself. As I have mentioned before, I always give 150% to the work that I do and am for the most part a pretty great employee. Yet, I always find myself in a jam of some sort. Not typically one that I have created for myself but usually one where I am being dragged into some petty battle of the wills, of he said/she said or an adult game of tattle tell over the simplest of things. I fully understand that there are some people in this world that don't and/or won't like me and I am okay with this. I probably don't care for them much either!! What I am not okay with is their inability to dislike me without involving me in their nonsense-- either directly or indirectly on a consistent basis.

I once heard a preacher say...the growth process is a series of lessons similar to the grades that we go through in school beginning with kindergarten. We can't progress on our journey until we master the subject matter at hand. We all have our challenges, our personality quirks, and some of those things that make others go HHHmmmm! But as we strive to grow, we have to master those things that make us stumble, either at our own hand or at the hands of others in an effort to move on to the next level. The best thing about this whole growth and learning process is that we are being refined and prepared for something greater! But, only if we learn the lesson and are able to move on. Not only are we required to learn the lesson and move along we are also led to understand that many of the people that are around us--whether friend or foe-- aren't always interested in becoming better people and moving on to the next level. Their goal is to block us and they are content with making that their destiny.

Do you think if I click my heels three times and say "I will learn the lesson, I will learn the lesson, I will learn the lesson" that I will in fact--Learn The Lesson!! I am so ready to move on to bigger and better things in many aspects of my life. Sometimes I feel like I am standing outside of the gate to Disney World (or some other magical/fun place) looking in at all of the wonder and fun that lies within...but not actually being able to partake in the festivities. Learn the lesson, learn the lesson, learn the lesson....and then move along!!

Always praying for focus, direction and stamina for the journey. (I no longer pray for patience because it means long suffering.)

It's been a long, long time comin'; but I know.. a change gon' come. Oh, yes it will!

Onward and upward!!